..remember..

Am I the only one who completely forgot that Thanksgiving is this week? I've been living in the bubble of The Resort at Pelican Hill..6 day work weeks..uniform fittings..wishing I was one of those lucky kittens who lose weight from stress instead of gaining it. Meanwhile the rest of the country is buying turkey and calling their mom for that great cranberry recipe. All that to say..remember..to be thankful..to enjoy the changing season..to curl your hair & put on your favorite sweater come Thursday..and to give something to someone who may not have a cozy fireplace and loved ones.

..I'm thankful for..
my husband's love & faithfulness

the Anthropologie sweater I have on

my freshly painted bathroom

all the sweet new girls I get to work with

a day off to sleep as late as my body would let me

the joy of thinking up the perfect gifts for those I cherish

happy thanksgiving

..happy sleep..

"A well spent day brings happy sleep."

Leonardo Da Vinci

love my new job (even though I'm still training)..love my new home (every day it's more beautiful & comfortable)..(deciding to) love my new car (even though it already needs surgery..I will welcome you home soon)..love the spontaneous visit with Katie on the side of the road (God is funny)..love that I'm getting paid tomorrow to have a facial & take home free product samples (a well spent day definitely brings happy sleep)..sweet dreams

..the City..

..I'm retardedly excited about the new Hills spin~off starring Whitney..

The City premiers Monday December 29th @ 10pm on MTV

..to be here..

I want to be here...

...breathing in this...

...with him.

..Can I just show you how gorgeous my cousin is?..

...Is it bad that this makes me want a daughter of my very own? She actually myspaced me Saturday to inform me that she bought me for $550...I am now her pet.

..Je veux..

..I want..

bangs . a camera . Ray La Montagne music wafting through the windows of my new home . to lose 6.8 pounds . to love this time in my life more than 2005 . a blog as cute as NieNie's . to live close to Christiana . for my brother & Gina to live happily ever after . a papillon . to be successful & happy at my new job . to have a life group I love again . resolution with katie . rain . WHITE teeth . for my parents to have enough money to retire beautifully & happily . to give them a grandchild . more Louis Vuitton . to have fun making home with my Jacob . to be beautiful for him always

..making home..

I came across a list in my old journal yesterday entitled "making home". It made me smile because my (gorgeous) husband and I are in the process of moving out of our first apartment together, and into a charming little condo we were recently able to buy. I feel so many things right now, but what impresses me most is this unexpected feeling that we're going home. As though our first couple of years were spent playing house, and now it's time for the real thing. I hadn't even been aware of feeling this way, but it's a good thing and I wanted to share it...along with the charming little list that I found.

comforting & charming decor

music

good lighting

good fragrance

(relatively) clean

chai tea

candles

photographs

fresh flowers

bath tub

a nice view

chick flicks (..like Beaches & the Holiday..)

worshipping / fellowshipping

something to look forward to (..project..)

family / love

affection

knowing you can be yourself

I can't wait..

..P.S. I also can't wait for the holidays this year (which is a first for me)..

..my Christiana..

beautiful..like 'my eyebrows & beauty mark make me look like a model even though I just rolled out of bed' beautiful . full of kindness . innately treats others with the same care she gives to her self . able to love with every fiber of her being . brave enough to choose the harder but far more rewarding path of sharing her life with someone..hanging her all on love..even though she could've created a comfortable pretty life by herself has undying faith in people . the most giving person I know . amidst all her self sacrificing she still sees the beauty in receiving . a dreamer . a serious believer in dreams..her own and those of others . excellent sense of priorities . smart . not a push~over . revels in the details of life . good at being a girl . great at being a friend . drinks water out of goblets just to make the every~day seem special . has a mothers' heart . spontaneous and fun . just unsure enough about her greatness to be really endearing and loveable

..I feel blessed because..

I've had butterflies land on me more than once in my life
I've known true love

I have a cozy, pretty bed and a gorgeous husband to share it with

I have enough time to enjoy life

I have enough accomplishment to feel secure

I have enough inspiration to create something new

I have enough bohemian eccentricity to feel special

I have a mother who wanted nothing more than to be a mother

I have a brother

I have a father who gets so excited to talk to me he has to try and play it cool
I delight in small things

I have girlfriends who love my soul

I'm female (and therefore get to shop at Anthropologie)

I have God's unfailing attention and devotion

..Art..

Art is the unspoken conversation with God as it would be between old friends who hide nothing and still have love.

..the Mermaid Cafe and other dreams unrealized..

My journal is filled these days with other people's quotes, magazine cut~outs I was drawn to, song lyrics that play in my head and graciously give themes to unspecified days. All beautiful, and in small ways a representation of my little life...but they are not "from" me. It's been too long since I've given myself the time and space to create. Rather than let my beautiful inspirations fly away...I will share them here. It is the need to have something out there that is "me"...a tribute to the God who created me. An old (cherished) mentor I used to have once described worship as a period of time when you are doing something and you feel God's pleasure washing over you as if to say "this is what I created you to do, and it brings me glory that you're walking in it."

I hope I remember how..